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  Well until next time.

  Jacob,

  What’s happening with you? Sorry for not hitting your right back. My job in here only pays me $8.00 a month. So I have to choose carefully how I spend it. One month I have to spend it on hygiene then I have a month where I try to treat myself to a box of chicken or can ham. This month was that time to do that. You have nothing to worry about because I am always going to find a way to respond to your letters. Ya Dig?!

  You say I act like I don’t want to be around. That shit you can save. If it was up to me we wouldn’t have to go through a friendship stage first. We would already be a couple. I am saying that this, don’t mix me up with them niggas you use to fuck with. I am not trying to play with your feelings. That’s what’s wrong with you. You are scared to open up to a nigga because in your eyes we are all the same. But we both know that’s not true. See I look at life totally different from most people. I see is like this, life is a chance. That’s why I’m not scared to take a chance. See like you said in your letter, you talking about dropping a nigga and not thinking anything about it. So you look at this as being a hobby. I take this shit to the heart. If I don’t want anything to do with you, do you think I would be asking a nigga for stamps so I could write you back. That’s going against what I believe. I hate asking a motherfucker for anything. So miss me with that.

  Now back to this about me getting out and getting my first piece of you. Right – that’s what I’m hoping that it cause some damage because that’s what I am going to cause. So don’t let that be you to catch what I’m going to bring. That thug passion to.

  Thank you for telling me happy b’day.

  So you are planning to move again. I hope not because you can believe I’m coming to see you for sure. To be honest to you about your picture, it just showed me your sexy eyes and face. I would love to see more with you standing up from the back and some more of your sexy face plus my dick is getting hard thinking about you sending me a picture of your backside. It look like the way you are squatting, you have a nice ass too. Don’t worry, them 21 months going to fly because you going to feel me. You can mark that in your book.

  Well that something you don’t have to worry about. Once I fuck you I am going to continue to do just that, hopefully forever.

  Yes, it was armed. But that me I am going to leave behind me. This is no place for anyone.

  You know what, I can say this to you, I am going to keep the dick to myself but I don’t know if I can keep my hand off of it. But to feel your tight pussy, I just may do that. Why you teasing me like that. You make me want to play with it now.

  Well I’m sending you this pic of me. What do you think about me with dreads? Don’t be mad if this is not a good pic cause I was going through my “don’t give a fuck stage” in it.

  Also, miss me with that dude shit. Save that for them white boys. Oh and if it is not a problem I would love to hear you voice sometime.

  Your friend for now

  Joe

  My Boo,

  What’s going on with you baby boy? For me myself, just sitting here reading your letter and enjoying every minute of it. Baby, it’s no need to apologize. Especially when you are doing something to benefit you. So I can accept that from time to time. Just don’t forget me. I really want to get to know you a little bit better.

  But as far as all that partying you need to slow your role on that. You trying to say that grad school is kicking your ass. N’all that’s you trying to do too much. If you let one of them go, you wouldn’t be so tired. Ya feel me?

  I feel you when you say you need to know what I want out of a relationship. Well first I want you but I also want someone I can love and be able to come home to after a long day of work. Someone I can grow old with and every morning when I wake up and roll over to look into my mate’s eyes to tell him or her how much I love them and how special you are to me and thank the Lord for sending you into my life. That is what I want in my relationship.

  Plus, I respect where you are coming from – meaning you are not ready at this point of time to jump into another relationship after being in one for so long. But I am also saying don’t let a good thing slip between your fingers because you not willing to open up at this time. I can say I’m not here to bring pain into your life. I am just trying to being the love back. I am a man of word baby. I’m not going to ever do anything to hurt you because when you hurt that only make me feel the same. So why do something to bring pain into my heart.

  In your letter you ask me how I want it. Well I want it in all position possible. You kind of got me afraid. You sound like you are an animal in the sheets. I can’t wait to find out then we will see who is too much. When I read what you were saying in your letter – that sound good as hell. You really know how to turn a brother on. My dick was so hard I hard to relieve myself on your pic. Especially the one with you going to your slide door. You look good when you are sleep too.

  So how long I have to wait before you tell me your secret.

  Baby, I am going to send you another pic whenever I get some more money. It’s kind of rough on me right now. When it gets better you will know I am going to send you a card with that pic. It seem like sense I been locked up, things are out of sync and out of mind. I don’t like kissing motherfuckers asses because I feel if someone going to do something for you they should do it without you asking them. They know how this place is. You have to have money to make it in here.

  Your friend – soon to be man

  My Boo,

  What’s up with you? For me myself trying to maintain and stay focus. Well I hope and pray my letter get to you in the best of health and spirit. I must say you placed a smile on my face when I received you letter tonight.

  First and foremost let me say don’t be putting me on freeze like that cause you made me think I ran you away. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted to pick my pen up and drop you a couple of lines but I can’t stand rejection. I care about you enough to let you live your life. Let me tell you that you have my feeling caught up with you. Don’t keep trying to pull them disappearing acts on me. Either you going to be with me through this or you are not. I would love for you to be with me but only you can make that choice.

  So you still calling me that dude shit. You love to get under my skin.

  Boo you are working with a school full of freaks. They are off the change up in there. But fuck them as long as my baby don’t get caught up in any of that shit – I’m straight.

  So you say that you are ready to be in a relationship again. I am saying this – I’ve been ready to be with you. But I am not trying to rush you into anything either. Know this one thing, I’m going to be here so if you need some more time that’s cool.

  I just want you to know that you are all I think of and I can’t wait to be released so I can come home to you and show you the love you have been missing. You deserve someone that is going to treat you like you need to be treated and this is with much love, my love.

  I am going to hold you on your word when you said that you were going to slow down on your partying. Baby I don’t want anything to happen to you especially when you are out there drinking and then driving home and shit. But you flirting with other niggas and shit, that don’t upset me. Just don’t give up any of “my goods”. Plus when they be trying to send little hint, tell them to miss you with that rap shit. Baby, look why want you send me some pictures of you in some thongs so I can make love to you and hang them on my bed so when I wake up in the morning you will be the first one I see. You said you were going to send me some money, which I would really appreciate. You said you had to pay your car note. Baby always handle your business first cause I don’t want you to think that what I’m writing you for cause I have been roughing it out this long so whatever you do foe m is a blessing from your heart. If you ever do send me some money you have to have a postal money order and you cannot have it in there with your letter.

  But other than that for you to be partying like you do, you are doi
ng well in grad school. You say you made 1 A and 3 B’s. Wish they all could have been A’s. That is cool. The next time you go back you are going to do better I already know you are. So when I’m I going to hear your voice. At least let me call you once a month if that is not asking too much. But if that is going to being another bill into your life, I’m cool with writing you cause I will hear you voice for sure one day. You can believe that. Might hear it too much sense we are going to grow old together right? I am going to see if you are going to write right back. Don’t have me looking for mail next week and don’t receive any. So do this one thing for me if you do get caught up with your job and school work, ask both of them can I have just 10 minutes of your time.

  Well I am out – your friend soon to be man

  Joe

  My Boo,

  What’s going on with you? Besides you thinking of me and me thinking of you. I received your letter tonight and I must say you kept your word. Meaning you wrote me right back. That tells me a lot about your feelings for me. But I feel the same way.

  To answer your question about a two-hour session. That’s not long enough for me. Especially for a person like that have been locked up so long. I’m thinking about making out all night type shit. So can you handle that? Me, myself, I have too much loving to give. That’s good Baby that you are taking your finals. I pray that you do well on them.

  So you telling me everything you do think about me. You want to know what life fulltime would be with me. It would be everything you ever wanted in a relationship. So whatever you wanted in a man, that’s me. I am the type to put my soul mate first and foremost. Because what is a relationship that is based on sex. I am looking forward to waking up to you telling you every morning how much I love you and how much you mean to me. You say you want to lay in bed and talk. Well you can talk to me whenever you write. Tell me about your day. I will tell you about my day – I worked out on my chest and arms today, trying to stay fit for when I see you. You will be able to feel the body that is hard for you to rub on. I am going to be looking forward to that picture of you and the kids.

  And for you info, I still have those pictures of you. I will never let them go. You ask me do I really want a relationship with a guy. Does it matter who a person is with if you have feeling for someone it don’t matter what their sexuality is. If you worry about that, love will always pass you by.

  With the Dalton thing, that was my homeboy. I was doing some hole time for cursing one of the guard out and he wrote me and told me to write you if I was interested. So I took it upon myself to take a chance. That is how that came about.

  You must really like that picture I sent you. I told you I was going to send another one whenever I took another one so you can look at it to. I could never get enough of hearing you say that.

  Yes, I am moving back home when I am released from here. I’m the type of nigga that love having fun. Going different places, doing shit normal people don’t do. Like making out in the movies and in a restaurant. Wherever I feel like fucking my mate that is what type I am. I would love for them to be open as me.

  See your ex was something like a thug but I am one. I like a person that can handle their own with a person or without. My dislikes is someone that is dirty. Someone that don’t want anything out of life. My turn-on’s are pretty eyes and smile, my turn-off’s are sack chasers and free loaders and bad breath. I like to smoke weed, fuck, and watch movies.

  The first time I know I was attracted to guys was when I was about 15 and this dude name Jerry asked me could he suck my dick. My shit got hard. I knew something was strange with that.

  For one if I commit to anyone that is who I want to be with and that how they will know. Why play games with someone. I was always taught don’t do to others for others will do to you.

  Your daddy was a rolling stone wasn’t he. But if you are spoiled, I want to spoil you more with my love.

  That time that I said we wouldn’t have to go through a friendship thing cause at that time I needed more than a friend. I needed a mate so that’s why I said that.

  At first I thought you were afraid to open up but I guess you feel a little more comfortable with me now.

  The reason for me calling your ass a pussy is because that what you have to me – a boy pussy (that I bet is good as hell)

  I think you teaching night school is a good move but I don’t want you to over work yourself because you have to much going right now. If you do don’t get caught up with one of them college dude and forget about me. If that is going to take place I don’t think I’m sure now.

  Baby you don’t have to wait too much longer before I’m home with you. Just wait on me. It is going to be worth your wait I promise you that. I care for you enough to tell you if you need to make out with someone, do you. That’s life. Just know that I am here and always will be but that is normal for all human. We have a need so if you can’t wait any longer, go get you some but make sure you leave your feelings wherever y’all make out at. You don’t have to worry about me keeping my dick to myself. Off top, the only pleasure I am going to get is if I’m playing with it. Well that’s all for now.

  Your soon to be man,

  Joe

  P.S. Whenever you decide to send me something. I’m here. Other than that you don’t have to keep on telling me that I believe you Boo. But about that number I do need an answer on that.

  Jacob,

  What’s up with you Babyboy? For me happy to receive you letter. How many times do you expect me to be on the back burner? I know you have your life to live but you say you are willing to live that with me. So why you continue to play these games with me feelings. Either you are going to fuck with me or you ain’t. But that’s a decision you have to make.

  First and foremost I send my prayer out to your friend and his family.

  Why do you love trying to get under my skin? If you only knew how many times I thought about picking up my pen. To be on some real shit, I thought something had happened to you. You don’t care about me feeling towards you.

  I can say that I am very proud of you on your scores but that C. Shit you and I know that you can do better. Even doe it’s a passing grade but we only accept the best.

  So you have been getting your flirt on which it’s nothing wrong with that as long as you don’t give away my good and yes I said my goods.

  So who has been sticking screws in your tires? You must really be getting your flirt on.

  I understand that you stay horny but that make two of us. I want you just as bad as you want me. That day is going to come and to answer your question; I don’t want to stick my dick in anyone but you when I get out. You think I’m going through all of these with to come home and give this loving I have for you to someone else. N’all that’s not going to happen because you are going to feel me for all the shit you trying to take me though. You have a good fucking coming, believe that.

  They do open my letters but they don’t go through it. Why did you ask me that?

  You just are going to keep on playing with me about giving me your number. If you don’t want me to have it just keep it real with me. If we don’t have trust in this relationship we have nothing, you feel me.

  Not to be a burden on you but boo I need you in the worst way. I need a couple of dollars cause I’m fucked up in here. So if you could do me that favor that would be alright. Baby you didn’t tell me you wrote a book. That’s real lovely of you.

  So old dude asked you to be in a porn movie. So did you want to be in it? I know that a fantasy of mine. You do have a big point about catching something.

  I am going to send you another picture probably next year.

  Well, that is it for now. I pray you don’t take forever to write me back.

  Jacob,

  What up with you Babyboy? I hope you receive my letter in the best of health and spirit.

  I must say you really know how to get under my skin but that’s all good. Me, myself, I should have known a nigga in my shoes couldn’t
hold you down before you explored your chooses. Life must go on. I just have to stop thinking that I can keep it on pause.

  This is my question to you – the next time you find a friend, which you probably will, I’m going to have to wait another month and a half before I receive another letter from you. Like I told you on the phone man, I’m trying to become more than your friend. I want to be you man. I can understand if you are not trying to commit to anyone right now. By the way you have been treated in your past relationship are whatever but don’t look at me like the rest of them. Opening up your heart – I promise I’m not going to stab you in it. If you hurt that only makes me hurt. Why hurt you when I’m going to get injured too.

  Other than that, why are you getting tired of school? Don’t give up something you will regret later. You really surprised me when you accept my call last night. I’m kind of mad I couldn’t talk to you longer but they were telling us time to lock down.

  I will call you next week to see what good with you. Baby, you know that I am from Mississippi and I don’t have any family in Kentucky. My people down there don’t do shit for a nigga. You are about the closest person to family I have. Man it is real rough on me. I had to borrow a stamp to mail you this letter and the nigga wants two stamps back for this one. Like I told you before, I do work in here but I only make $7 a month, so if you could do anything to help me out I’ll appreciate it. If not, I understand. I don’t want to be an extra baggage on you and I don’t want you to look at me any different than what you already see me for.